Another Boring day!!

Not much to tell...

no i lied They say my son Tre maybe epleptic...I gotta go on the 23rd so they can do an MRI. I dunno why they are waiting so long when I wanna know NOW...
They also said he looked Pasty Pale in color..and yeah i have to agree with them..he has always been so sickly and pale! So they are doing a blood count which they took yesterday..
I've never seen a neruologist looked so puzzled as to what is wrong with my son..

MY mom made me cry today..She is always right and thats the scary part. She said she doesn't think Tre will live much longer...She said she has always felt that way even when he was born..and i started to tear up b/c its the truth...When he was born I didn't let myself become too attached to him b/c i just knew he would pass away from me...and Ihave 2 others i have to be worried about and I had no time for mourning...
but that was then ..now If God forbid something terrible was to happen to him...i swear i would just lose my mind..
So thats the state i'm in at this point.
Its a long time for they may know any answers..and ihope its simple things..not anything life threatning.but i'm tryin' to put that in my mind but on the back burner.....Every morning..i'm so scared i'm going to go in his room and find him not breathing and dead...its a scary thought..
oh also, they said his heart rate was fast yesterday..even when he was calm and laying half asleep in my lap! I dunno what they plan to do or refer me too concerning that..i guess they think one huddle at a time..
and the poor boy only weighs 23 pounds!! he will be 3 in march!! He eats like crazy but yet can not seem to GAIN any weight..and its not like he plays it off b/c he will play for a few minutes and get tired and go lay down for a little while before playing again..not to mention he drinks about 2 cans of pedisure a day and take vitamins....and eats more than my 5 year old and his twin put together!! I can always count on Tre to finish up the leftovers!! *lol*